Valentine 2021

Can't ever imagine;

Im'ma be stuck here

sittin' on the corner,

leaning on a wall,

one table away,

from the exact spot we met,

our first date;

without you.

I still remember the dress you wore:

greenish-blue

with a cardigan on top,

flat shoes 'cause i'm short;

how sweet of you.

Anxiously glancing; eastward,

My heart throwing a wishful feeling,

butterflies in my stomach, flinging ticklishly;

I hope you were riding the escalator up,

walk towards me, with that longing smirk you always give;

i pray you were thinking as foolishly as i do.

My brain, my logic, my common sense;

figure that you wouldn't.

Why would you?

If every repercussion of my wrongdoings is you sayin' you leavin'.

Yet you said you never ever really left;

so why this time would be different;

had you change?

Had I?

Had We?

Two hours in a Starbucks,

40 bucks remaining to my name;

2020 hit me hard;

2021 hit me harder.

Would i ever come back to this again?

Would i ever bounce back from this, again?

Professional do-over without a job;

futures seems too dark.

It's pouring out raining.

Flashes of lights reminding me;

Maybe you will never be mine again.